insight arising

I'm so grateful to share, after a year of deep inner work, I crossed a rite of passage this weekend and became a certified Integral Coach with New Ventures West . My beloved teachers asked us these essential questions. "What does it feel like to become more of yourself in your own life?" "What does life want of you? What must be released in order to meet life's calling?" As I become more of myself in my own life, I feel so deeply free. I have little to contend with internally. There are no wars within me. This journey of becoming a coach, and more importantly, of becoming whole and intimate with myself, has gifted me peace and ease in my heart, mind, and body. The more of these qualities I feel, the more present and attentive I am to life. The more of life I witness, the stronger the energetic force within me grows, welcoming in all the possibilities for a deeper and more aligned way of life. The more truly I live, the more capacity I have within to hold the

We don't talk as much about the heartbreak we experience in friendship. Maybe we talk about disagreements we've had with someone or even momentary grievances that occur, but we rarely hear  about the pain that comes from when a friendship transitions into a state that just doesn't feel the same as it once did.  Over the past few years, as my life has transformed, so have all of the relationships in my life in some way or another. Some have deepened in ways I couldn't expect. Some became even more like family. Some became easier and lighter. Some more strained or a little awkward. Some ended quietly. Some ended abruptly. Some became more distant. I've made new friendships that have nourished me deeply in a short time. I've lost old friends where the connection lost its steam and shared understanding. I've reconnected with those whose lives felt more relatable.  Recently I've been struggling with the impermanence of it all. I've been confused by my des